comeonwiththedarkness

I ONLY LOG INTO TUMBLR WHEN IM SAD

I’m never doing anything for anyone ever again.

Yesterday, I forced myself to write about my feelings.

 I was hoping it would turn into a song. Something beautiful, and deep, yet poetic. This is what I got:

“Sometimes I feel like I am floating downwards. Continuously floating downwards into an empty pit. Feelings of jealousy and emptiness plague my soul. Feelings of complete empathy towards things that should matter consume my being. I am not an alpha male, or a healthy stallion. I am just a half eaten piece of trash.”


THERE’S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.

Hi Tumblr.

I come to you in times of turmoil.

I feel like I am going to puke.

Stupid Girl.

I don’t want to hang out with you AND my friend. Especially, my friend who is ANNOYING AS FUCK (even though i sometimes love him) that I am spending the weekend with in georgia anyways. UGH UGH UGH. I feel like I’m gonna puke. You people sicken me.



Do I always have to be second best, second coolest, second smartest, strongest, good looking, what the fuck ever?
Why can’t I ever win?
Is it my lack of confidence?
or,
Is it me just sucking? (which in turn contributes to my lack of confidence).


I will NEVER be completely happy.

The whore equation.

So let’s check this out.
Guy #1 
Complements girl all the time. Takes her to the concert of her dreams. Treats her amazingly. Has saved her ass on several occasions. Plays sports, but is not super athletic. Is somewhat sensitive, and loves music. Will do anything for her, and she knows it.

Guy#2

Total Bro. Plays football, lacrosse, you name it. Unathletic but will play on any team he doesnt get cut from just for the attention. Tall, with blonde hair. Walks like a penguin. Wears pink shirts and khaki shorts, and sperrys nearly everyday. Dumb enough to possibly not make it through high school. Blazes everyday. But can’t handle it cuz he’s toooooooooo dumb already. Treats girls like shit.



Guy #1 (ME)= Friend Zone

Guy #2= OMGLOL POSSIBLY MAI NEW BOYFRIEND LOLZ (quoted directly from dumb bitch)

I haven’t been a tumblin’ mood lately.

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